Uncertainty And Self Esteem

I have spent my whole life trying to fit in and please other people; mainly because the things I like are super nerdy and geeky. Over time I have grown really tired of trying to fit in and being other people’s BITCH.  I have a group of friends that are really into the Arts. By Arts I mostly mean music and film. My group consists of very smart, witty and funny people. I see myself as the only person in my group of friends that is different. I don’t really fit in. To them and everyone else I seem like this very disturbed , nervous and quiet person that shows no true emotion. The main reason for that is that I really don’t share similar interests with my friends and have had a very low self esteem. Therefore trying to like things that I don’t really have much interest in, have caused me to become clueless as to who I am.  Although there is one very big thing we all have in common. WE DON’T LIKE MOST OF THE STUPID PEOPLE THAT ATTEND OUR SCHOOL. I believe that we all hate people (in general) in some way shape or form (I might be wrong). I don’t have a very large vocabulary compared to my friends, but with most people I know, I tend to seem smarter for actually trying to speak proper English. I am now sure of the type of person I am. I am a very nerdy/geeky kid that doesn’t seem to share interests with most people. I love computers, video games and computer parts. I want to study Computer Engineering. I know that I will bore people with conversations because the only thing I know and love is technology. I can’t really be witty or funny all the time but I try. 

The Most important thing I realized is that I should be very grateful  for having such an  awesome group of friends. Friends like the ones I have aren’t easy to find.

  1. gemsamazed said: You go Moss! ;)
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